AWOL.

I have not blogged for a few weeks, or tweeted much (apart from a load of old shit and retweets) I honestly have nothing to say for myself right now, nothing interesting, nothing from the heart. Just nothing.

I'm still house hunting, still in Australia, enjoying it but a bit numb. When stripped of all the people you love and all the places you like to go to, it leaves you open and bare....and empty. I just feel empty. I feel like a massive tree stripped of its leaves, it's there, you can see it but the leaves are gone - the things that make it voluptuous and colourful, the things that breeze in the wind.

I guess I'm lonely. I'm fed up, I love being in Australia but I need my fix of ME. My friends, my family, what I enjoy. I know I sound selfish and I really don't mean too. I feel such sadness that mike doesn't get to live with his family, and that Jacob misses out on his other family, but I'm just not one of those people that can do it. I'm too weak.

I'm sure I'll perk up once we're on our way home, and we have a fab holiday to America coming up. Jacob is thriving and making me smile everyday, and for that I'm truly grateful.